Again and Again I like to pretend that we were
made for … so much more.
It goes without saying, without explaining,
she was rotten to the core

But I … only ever wanted to see the best in you
And I … never even heard you try to tell me the truth.

I get excited by being gaslighted, so tonight you've got one chore
Twisting and Turning, my blood is burning, and I'm yearning to be yours

But I … only ever wanted to see the best in you
And I … never even heard you try to tell me the truth.

What did I do to make you change your mind?
What did I say that I can’t take back this time?

What did I do to make you think it’s something we can’t get through?
What did I do?
Well maybe this time it was you

I realize it’s hard when you realize when you’re wrong
Like hearing words you’ve never heard in your favorite song

And I know why I’m blamed any time you get burned
Cause Pain’s like a river, and It follows the path that it learns

Your gravity is strong,
It pulls me down, no matter what I do
I thought I had this solved.
But my solutions all revolve around you
I thought I had this solved
I thought I had this solved
I thought I had resolve
But my resolve just dissolves around you

All the trees…. That lost their leaves. waiting it out, Skeletons asleep,
But they know December in Chicago is no place to wait out anything, … but you say,
Maybe if we wait, Just a little break, the medicine will take, telling me it’ll be fine
Have a little faith, everything is great, just a little space, its really just myself I'm, trying to find.

What used to be, sweat on our sheets, Third floor apartment, still home to me
Is now sheets of ice on our window warm tears running down your cheek
But you say, there’s nothing wrong with me, if it’s meant to be, you’ll just have to see you can stop asking, I feel fine
I think it’s in your head. I’ve never been better. It’s really just this goddamn weather. I’m trying to leave behind. Leave behind.

But I see you… looking down, at me
How do you find yourself on the moon anyway?
Ain’t it cold when the sun shines on me
But it doesn’t shine on you

But I see you… looking down, at me
Eyes as blue as ice, should ever be
Ain’t it cold when the sun shines on me
But it doesn’t shine on you

My voice, your song,
I play along.
If you go, right now,
I wouldn't change even if I knew how
My life, your pain
Your loss, my gain
We try to be,
Everything to everyone but some things they can't see

I came, along
You made me Strong
Now I’ll carry it all cause you… left so much to hold on to.
This time it’s done
You’ve come undone,
We’ll be alright,
The Darkest shadows come from the brightest lights

Drip drop feed the animals
micro-dosing mind control
Clawing at each other through imaginary walls
It’s feeding time

Evolving slowly into this…
Pixel photo synthesis
I don’t think it’s working, have we considered intravenous ?

You took their medicine and now you need their medicine again.
You took their medicine and now you need their medicine again.
They slipped their venom in and now you need their medicine again.

Drip by drip till bellies full
Through the night the faces glow,
Someone cut the power, This fevers growing out of control

Through the Tubes the venom flows
In the air the power grows
Weaponize, incentivize weaponize weaponize
It’s Feeding Time

You took their medicine and now you need their medicine again.
You took their medicine and now you need their medicine again.
They slipped their venom in and now you need their medicine again.

I, I apologize
I, I, I, I apologize
For drowning in you.

Please, Please don’t throw me no lines
Please, Please, Please, Please don’t throw me no lines
Cause I’ll be fine in time.

I didn’t fall into you, you know you poured yourself on me
Now you wanna put it back
Back in the bottle, back in the bottle
Like you were setting me free
Setting me free
Setting me free…
Setting me free…

I, I apologize
Well you tipped over, dripped over, spilled yourself up to my knees
When you reached my eyes, I finally realized, that I was
Drowning in you.

You left room to breathe
There’s an ocean of air in between…
Your sense of self and everything else, which is me

And It feels like a dream,
I see everything,
And everything makes sense and everything’s not what it seems.

You left the room to breathe
And I stayed here to be…
Alone for the night so we don’t need to fight about me

You’re Walking through a dream,
With a temporary sheen
Ignoring the slip of losing your grip on everything

How far can we fall, how much can we stand
How far can we fall, is the universe expanding
Fall up through clouds
Before clouds turn to shadows
Can we get back home, can we get back home

I could’ve passed right by,
But in a moment of weakness, I decided I would pass through.
I must have been pretty lost…
I must have been pretty lost to be stumbling upon you,

A thousand miles of bluegrass and black fences,
A thousand memories flood my senses.
I don’t know what I came for.
I’m the one who left, but you’re not here anymore.

You got no business being here you say to me
I’ve got nothing left to give.

I wander around while I marvel in your beauty.
Fragments of bullets, my regrets tearing through me
And with the patience of a dead man
I wait for something that resembles you

You got no business being here you say to me
I’ve got nothing left to give.

God I know I
Don’t belong here
Just had to see it for myself.
I left but, You’re the one who’s gone.
Just had to see it for myself.

Reading…
someone else’s lines
With inflection and perfect time
How did I even find myself on this stage?

Living…
In another place,
In an unintended space
Always looking out for what I’m too afraid to chase

Could it…
And should it be my time?
I know I’m past my prime
My expiration date has come and gone

But I know…
The Hand I’m dealt is Divine
Probably should feel sublime
But If you don’t know pain you aren’t living or so they say

Living
In another place,
In an unintended space
Every step I take brings me back to where I started

But despite all
The loss that I’ve sustained
The perspective i have gained
Somehow I’m still waiting for it all to blow away